Into the Light
Gillian Cornwall, c. 2015
I am posting this again because I know I have gone off the rails again with an inability to balance, to stop, to breathe and to pay attention where attention is due, to this gift of life.
I eat to fill the space
that once was filled with a whole me.
I yearn for sleep that lasts
The only way to fix me
is to be me
and the only way
to be me
is to take the time
to heal me -
to walk the path of wellness.
For food won't fill it,
my mind can't simply will it.
The only way to be me
is to walk free
...And so I step up to the mic and say, "Enough." Time is limited. It is my most limited resource and it is essential that I make the most of the time I have remaining. I am going to do what I need to best ensure I have as much time left as possible and that begins with self-care. This means moderation in consumption, particularly food, and eating fresh, local goods - way fewer packaged comestibles. It means making gentle exercise a priority and re-embracing Qi Gong as a daily practice in my life. It means caring less about the meanness that exists in our world - and by meanness, I am using the English definition of the word ...because I am English.... Definition: "lack of generosity; miserliness."
I will breathe deeply and be present. I will say what I need and give it to myself, such as: "Time to write please!"
There is only one way to get what we need and that is to create a kind and loving space for it. Take time to consider how we work and what we do and whether it is of value. Are we performing a task simply because we always have, or is there still a need or a positive impact from that labour? If not, let's chuck it! There is time for other pursuits if we look for it creatively. Prioritizing how we spend our time is essential to the level of joy we have in our lives.
So, I organize to make the time to create the time to have more time. Yes, I am able to see the first world entitlement and irony here.... When did I complicate my life like this and how do I re-take the reins?
Attention. Attention to the moments, the days, the weeks, the months and years. Attention to how I utilize and create during the time I do have and a sound belief that I have the right and the autonomy to choose.
In this season of rebirth and renewal, take a look at how your time is spent. Be creative and make space for your exceptional individuality to shine and grow. Your greatest successes and inspirations will come when you make space for them to grow. Like all the flora and fauna of the earth, you will blossom with the right amounts of space, time, nourishment and sunlight.
With love to each of you.
-Gillian Cornwall, March 26, 2017
Originally posted, c. March 27, 2016
Chickadee Spring, The Warrens Garden, Brentwood, BC
Gillian Cornwall, c. Spring 2015